I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good: Private Message to Hydra

[alt_justin]

Good morning.

I love you. Did you sleep at all last night? I say, I think I finally dropped off round about two.

But I'm not sorry we stayed out late.

Are you? I mean to say, you don't...regret what happened? What you did?

Because I wasn't...I'd not have minded if you thought--think--it was a mistake. A lovely present, mind, but.... I mean to say, after your talk with your cousin, and the books and things, if you were feeling pressure, then, I well understand. I never want you to do anything you don't bally well want to do, what?

Well. I do love you. And not just because of last night.

-J

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[alt_hydra]

I didn't enjoy it like you enjoyed it. But yes. It made me feel sort of proud about it? Perhaps that's a bit strange, but that's the best way I can think to describe it.

I'm glad you enjoyed the party. I wish I had more pocket money so that I could have bought even more macarons, mostly because they were gone so quickly and I only managed to get two for myself. And I'm sure that I saw Remy eat at least six. Oh, and did you hear how he said "bugger that!" when you asked me to dance? I'm starting to think you're right, he does fancy you, and he's cross because he's starting to realise that you and I are doing more than holding hands between lessons.

But it was nice that so many people came. A good amount from every house, even.

From,
Hydra

[alt_justin]

Fair enough. Well, I'll just say I'm glad you're pleased, and leave it at that.

I keep telling you I don't care about pocket money or anything but now that you mention it, Remy did rather make a pig of himself, what? Only I'm quite sure he didn't say anything like that when we danced. Are you sure you're remembering correctly?

But I do think you're right about him fancying me. Before the music started up, he caught me over in the corner by the punch bowl. 'I'm really, really glad you're living with us,' he said, 'but I just want you to know I don't think of you as a brother.' And then he put his hand on my arm, what? It was...well. It was fairly unmistakable.

I told him I agreed, it would be bally well awkward to think so, after such a short time and since I shan't be there much longer. It was as kind as I could think to say.

But I shouldn't want him to start to resent you, what? We shall have to think of some way to help him develop other interests.

Who else do we know who might fancy other blokes?

-J

[alt_hydra]

Oh no, I'm sure he said it. Quite loudly, too. Maybe you were concentrating on the music, though.

But did he really say that he doesn't think of you as a brother? And with his hand on your arm? Oh, no...

I suppose if I were a boy who fancied other boys, and there was one living with me who was fit, and polite, besides, I might start to hope and imagine that he would fancy me back.

Still, he ought to know by now that you fancy girls, and one in particular.

In last year's quiz, the boys who were "Least Likely to a Marry a Girl" were Terrence Higgs, Duncan Inglebee, Geoff Hooper, and, ah, Harry and Draco.

I don't think Harry and Draco fancy boys, though, and I'm not really sure about the others.

From,
Hydra

[alt_justin]

Well, I didn't hear anything, Dux, but if you say so then maybe he did do.

You think I'm fit?

I think he knows I fancy you, of course, but I think he also might hope that I shall...broaden my horizons, if you follow me.

Hm. I don't know Higgs well at all but Inglebee I met a few times last year, over in Ravenclaw. He doesn't strike me as someone who'd fancy Remy. Anyway, all of them, even Hooper, are a bit too old for him, what?

I'm quite certain Harry and Draco aren't gay. I think Hopkins might be but I'm not sure. What about Nott? (Though I pity anyone who'd go out with him, so perhaps no, either way.) Or Zabini?

I say, Pip MacMillan (Ernie's younger brother), he might be. I know people think François is, but that's the same as thinking I am, just because he spent time in France, what?

-J

[alt_hydra]

Now don't play innocent, you know that I do.

Maybe he thinks that you're in denial. What's that saying? "Keeping the Floo closed," I think. Because it would be hard to know who you might approach when nobody says that they're gay. Susan Bones is the first person I've known who's said that she fancies girls.

And even that's different. Mummy says that men like the idea of two girls together, so sometimes girls will say that they fancy girls and boys just to get male attention. I don't think that's what Susan is doing, though.

Anyway, I don't think Harry, Draco, or Blaise are gay. Teddy's so strange it's hard to say. He used to leave little tarts and cakes by my plate last year, before you started noticing me. I didn't know what to think of it.

I suppose Hopkins might be a possibility. I don't know if I know enough about Pip MacMillan to say either way.

Well, I've written to Remy and told him I want to talk to him. I won't say that I know about him touching your arm, but maybe I can get him to talk about it some other way.

From,
Hydra

[alt_justin]

I'm not, love, I just like to hear you say it, what? I was so sickly when I was little that I don't particularly think of myself as well-turned out. So thank you.

As for Remy, you know him best, I suppose. I'd be inclined to leave it alone, it's no bother, in particular, and it's not as if I'm going to break down in the face of his overtures, what? But if you think you can have a reasonable conversation and direct his attentions somewhere else, onto someone who might have a chance of returning them, then carry on, sweetheart.

See you after supper, all right? I've got some Arithmancy homework to finish up and then a short assignment for Professor Slughorn but then I've nothing but Runes and Charms. And Defence, of course. And 'Noble' Arts.

And you.

-J

[alt_hydra]

I was quite a funny looking child, as well.

You might be fine leaving it alone, but I don't know that I am. I suppose I'm feeling a little taken aback, especially now that I've just spoken with him -

Well, all I said was "is there any special reason why were you so cross when Justin and I were dancing?" And he pretended not to know what I was talking about. He insists that he didn't say a word when we danced and that I'm imagining things. "I wasn't at all cross, don't be absurd," he said, then he claimed he needed to do homework and hurried off to his dorm. And I know for a fact that he never does homework on Friday nights.

He looked a bit pale, I have to say. I suppose I really took him by surprise. Now I feel a bit sorry for it.

Well, I'm heading down to eat so I'll see you soon.

From,
Hydra