It's all right, it's a fair question. Probably another 'all for the best' answer. Yes, it was before Remus and I got together - though, that's not entirely an accurate statement, since if you look at it from a certain point of view, it's always been Remus for me. And I think it's always been me for him, though I hope for his sake that's not true.
That's why it wouldn't have worked, if I'd tried to stand by her. Either Remus and I would eventually have admitted our feelings, and we'd have had two relationships caught up in our wake, or we'd have gone on as we were forever, him with Dora and me with my friend, and all been slightly miserable, until something else came along to force us to recognise what should have been obvious a long time ago.
But as it happens, I have all sorts of children. I still see the little boy now and again, and he has no idea his real father was a raping bigot. And I've got Harry and you and Hydra, if she'll have me, and even Draco and Hermione, and Albia and Adam, in their way. And Dora's still an integral part of our family. And I've Remus, as well. I'm rich.
As I said, you can drive yourself round the twist with all the 'might-have-beens'. The only way to go is forward.
Do yourself a favour and enjoy some sunshine, go for a fly or do whatever you do to take care of yourself. Enjoy being a teenager for the little while you have left. And don't feel too guilty for your part in all this. You, Hydra, Ron, Harry--all of you--you're already shouldering more of the burden than you should have to do. You've every right to indulge in the things that make you feel more human.
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Re: Private Message to Justin
Date: 2015-05-01 03:35 pm (UTC)That's why it wouldn't have worked, if I'd tried to stand by her. Either Remus and I would eventually have admitted our feelings, and we'd have had two relationships caught up in our wake, or we'd have gone on as we were forever, him with Dora and me with my friend, and all been slightly miserable, until something else came along to force us to recognise what should have been obvious a long time ago.
But as it happens, I have all sorts of children. I still see the little boy now and again, and he has no idea his real father was a raping bigot. And I've got Harry and you and Hydra, if she'll have me, and even Draco and Hermione, and Albia and Adam, in their way. And Dora's still an integral part of our family. And I've Remus, as well. I'm rich.
As I said, you can drive yourself round the twist with all the 'might-have-beens'. The only way to go is forward.
Do yourself a favour and enjoy some sunshine, go for a fly or do whatever you do to take care of yourself. Enjoy being a teenager for the little while you have left. And don't feel too guilty for your part in all this. You, Hydra, Ron, Harry--all of you--you're already shouldering more of the burden than you should have to do. You've every right to indulge in the things that make you feel more human.