Justin Finch-Fletchley (
alt_justin) wrote2015-02-24 12:11 pm
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Private Message to Sally-Anne, Ron and Harry
It's a beautiful day, isn't it. I'm going outside for luncheon.
If anyone should happen to be looking for me, what, I'll be near the lake.
If anyone should happen to be looking for me, what, I'll be near the lake.
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Maybe you should chuck it in?
If you want to leave and want someone to leave with, I could wash this up and go. I mean, I can come back and do this one evening. I'll just say it was turning sour if Gimlet says anything.
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Oh, say. Look out if you come round the inside corner of your bench. There's a puddle of that glop oozing out on the floor. Could be slippery. Or caustic. What was in your cauldron when it went up, anywiz?
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What are we meant to be making? Oh, dash it, it doesn't bally well matter. I'll just clear the lot away and have done.
Private Message to Harry
Thank you, for coming outside this afternoon. I'm sorry I wasn't fit company but I do want you to know I appreciated the effort. And the not talking, as Ron would say.
-Justin
Private Message to Sally-Anne
She's jolly well brassed off with me, though. So I can't talk to her, just now. Everything I say's wrong, as I feared. Particularly things I said and didn't mean at all.
If you're seeing to her then please, don't fuss about me. But--
Well. I'll wait for her, I suppose.
-Justin
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I think she rather likes it when she gets a little fussing, because then she knows people care. But, I don't think she quite knows what to do with it.
Anyway. How are you doing?
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I've already gone up and drawn the curtains, or I'd say let's meet in the secret room.
She certainly doesn't wish to be fussed over about this. I'm rather sure she's in favour of pretending it never happened, in fact. I'd go so far as to say she's relieved to be rid of
ourit.And it wasn't my body so I'm not permitted to feel anything, either, it would seem.
Oh, I say. I'm frightfully sorry. I shouldn't be burdening you with all this.
I'm perfectly all right, obviously.
-Justin
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I'm sorry you're grieving, Justin. You're not a burden on me. You're a friend, and I'm here to listen if you want to talk to someone who already knows. (You're also allowed to tell people, if you want to talk to Harry, or Ron. You're not a Healer; you know because you were involved.)
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So I shall try.
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I'm sorry you're having such difficulties with each other about it, though.
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So to have the decision taken out of my hands would be a relief, not because I wouldn't want Ron's baby, but because I would, actually.
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Obviously, I don't want to think of a child endangering her life, or our prospects, and you're quite right that we would have had to make a decision, had we known.
But the difference is that you'd want that child, and it might even cross your mind to regret the choice you'd have had to make. Or had made for you, what.
Of course, I understand what you mean--what you're trying to say. And I do see the validity of feeling that this--situation--is rather dodging a bludger. But there's something stinging nonetheless in realising that she never wanted my child, even if the timing and circumstances were far from ideal.
I never told you that we'd planned to leave and go to Grimmauld. The night before Sherwood and Ollerton, we'd both packed our things to run. But then we were sent out and--well, we changed our plans, after.
So, you see, if she'd learned or realised her condition, we would have had a choice. We could have changed our minds again. But she hasn't even considered that as an option. It's not anything that even entered her mind. Terminating the pregnancy was her only thought.
There's a difference between relieved and thankful.
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It's not as if she's exactly had a good role model for parenting.
Anyway loads of people our age don't think they ever want kids and loads of them change their minds later, it's something everyone makes jokes about in the American Witches books.
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Over Christmas, when you and Hydra were staying at Spence, Daphne and I speculated a bit -- idly -- that the two of you had got secretly married. There was just something about the two of you together... anyway.
I was thinking today and realised that stomach ache of yours you wanted a potion for, that wasn't nerves. Of course, I won't tell Daphne she was right, but if she speculates again and I dodge the question she may draw her own conclusions.
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Oh,
bugdash it, if Antonin knows, I don't see why a friend shouldn't. Yes. Since July.Re: Private Message to Sally-Anne
Congratulations.