Right. you know i hate like poison doing private posts, and why, but i do want to say this once, 'cause i think you need to hear it.
i don't have any kind of grudge against you in any way, justin. i don't, and so you don't need to feel bad around me anymore because you're able to study and have a wand in the open and everything. and you can complain if you need to if things are hard for you without worrying that i'll think you're a berk or something because things are way harder than me.
i've got a wand, too, remember. and i study on my own all i can, and i'm going to get away from the bloody git once and for all. and when i do, it'll be that bookbag you buried for me that may make all the difference when I finally escape. do you have any idea how much the very thought of that bookbag out there waiting for me helps me? do you have any idea how much it makes me laugh to myself sometimes that you know Sirius Black, and you're out there studying openly and being treated like an honored guest and proving all their garbage wrong about muggleborns, and they don't even have a bloody clue?
Neither of us know what our lives would have been like if our situations had been reversed. but i don't know if i could have been as brave as you. going to a foreign country and all, and then deliberately choosing to stay in the danger zone, just in the hopes of being able to help.
well.
guess i've wanted to say that for awhile.
i really hope that i'll get to meet you someday, whether you stay or whether you go. somehow.
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Private message to Justin Finch-Fletchley and Amycus Carrow
Date: 2012-05-28 02:09 am (UTC)i don't have any kind of grudge against you in any way, justin. i don't, and so you don't need to feel bad around me anymore because you're able to study and have a wand in the open and everything. and you can complain if you need to if things are hard for you without worrying that i'll think you're a berk or something because things are way harder than me.
i've got a wand, too, remember. and i study on my own all i can, and i'm going to get away from the bloody git once and for all. and when i do, it'll be that bookbag you buried for me that may make all the difference when I finally escape. do you have any idea how much the very thought of that bookbag out there waiting for me helps me? do you have any idea how much it makes me laugh to myself sometimes that you know Sirius Black, and you're out there studying openly and being treated like an honored guest and proving all their garbage wrong about muggleborns, and they don't even have a bloody clue?
Neither of us know what our lives would have been like if our situations had been reversed. but i don't know if i could have been as brave as you. going to a foreign country and all, and then deliberately choosing to stay in the danger zone, just in the hopes of being able to help.
well.
guess i've wanted to say that for awhile.
i really hope that i'll get to meet you someday, whether you stay or whether you go. somehow.