I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up to No Good: Private Message to Dux

[alt_justin]

Hallo.

Did you get back all right? And give Harry back the cloak?

I.... I say. I hope you're not disappointed. I mean to say, I know it wasn't perfect.

Has.... Does it still hurt?

I'm not sorry we did, though, what. I just...hope you....

Well. I love you. I say, I hope that helps at least a little.

-Justin

Comments

[alt_hydra]

I'm fine. It wasn't what I thought

I don't have any regrets, but I suppose I didn't expect that it would be quite so - uncomfortable.

I love you too, though.

From,
Hydra

[alt_justin]

Dash it. I'm so sorry. Perhaps it's because you're so slender?

You don't think you'll need to see Matron, or anything? Because if you need to do, then you ought to do. Even if it means they'll find out, what?

Other than that, do you...feel any different? I thought I would feel

-J

[alt_hydra]

Do you mean, because I'm young? Well, women used to be married and have children at my age, once upon a time. So I don't know. And none of the other things we've done were uncomfortable, so I suppose I thought this wouldn't be, either. I mean, they say that it is, but I thought - well, I don't know what I thought.

I'm sorry.

But no, I don't think I need to see Matron. There's that, at least.

I don't feel very different until I think about it hard, and then I do. And yet I don't. It's hard to explain. What about you?

From,
Hydra

[alt_justin]

I don't bally well think of you as young, though I know your fath everyone else does. I meant--petite. I know girls younger than you used to have children but it seems to me that everything back then was on a shorter span, if you follow me. People died a lot younger, too, what.

Dash it, Dux, you've nothing to be sorry about. I'm the one who caused you pain. Discomfort. Either.

I feel the same way. I keep thinking about it and--yes, it's different and the same all at once. Rather like one's birthday: One looks forward to it all year and yet, it's just a day. One doesn't age the whole year all in one go, what!

And yet, I think we bally well grew up rather a lot today, too.

I think I liked best the part where we were lying together, between. I imagine that's what it's like for husbands and wives.

-J

[alt_hydra]

You weren't trying to hurt me, that's just how it works.

Yes, a bit like a birthday or a holiday. And I suppose we did grow up.

That part was nice, wasn't it? Now that I think about it, I really didn't start to feel strange and sad about things until I had to leave. I wish I could have stayed.

From,
Hydra

[alt_justin]

I wish you could have done, too, what, but--well, as it was, getting you back through the Common Room was tricky. Perhaps if the day hadn't been so cold, more people would still have been in Hogsmeade. I'm well glad you had the cloak!

And you're right. Probably part of why it's difficult is that it'll be some time before we have that sort of privacy again. Well, I say privacy, I mean to say privacy and room to spread out, what.

The stairwell alcove's simply not going to be nearly so cosy after today.

-J