It's funny, love. The horcrux was trying to offer us...well, what it thought we wanted, I suppose. Power, success--a life freed from having to feel guilt or shame over our actions past and future. Ron's just said that it wasn't its words that were dangerous, what, and that's bally well true. One felt...absolved, in a way. As if one were completely within one's rights to dark arts and malice and vengeance.
And once I realised that's what it was doing, I.... I knew it was utterly untrue. I've been worried, well, you know, as we've said before--that I was becoming the monster Dolohov has been training me to be. That I was losing myself in the darkness. But I do feel remorse for the things I've done with him, what, and I think I do maintain motives that are more for good than for ill. What's more, I didn't want to feel the euphoria it was bringing on. I wanted to feel the guilt but decide on my own to set it to the side.
After that, it was simply a matter of doing what needed to be done before any of us lost our nerve.
I'm sorry, that's likely more than you needed to hear, what!
Re: Private Message to Hydra
It's funny, love. The horcrux was trying to offer us...well, what it thought we wanted, I suppose. Power, success--a life freed from having to feel guilt or shame over our actions past and future. Ron's just said that it wasn't its words that were dangerous, what, and that's bally well true. One felt...absolved, in a way. As if one were completely within one's rights to dark arts and malice and vengeance.
And once I realised that's what it was doing, I.... I knew it was utterly untrue. I've been worried, well, you know, as we've said before--that I was becoming the monster Dolohov has been training me to be. That I was losing myself in the darkness. But I do feel remorse for the things I've done with him, what, and I think I do maintain motives that are more for good than for ill. What's more, I didn't want to feel the euphoria it was bringing on. I wanted to feel the guilt but decide on my own to set it to the side.
After that, it was simply a matter of doing what needed to be done before any of us lost our nerve.
I'm sorry, that's likely more than you needed to hear, what!
-J